I have been struggling with digestive issues, probably IBS (ugh, TMI. Sorry) And one thing that was supposed to be amazing and really change things went wrong. After eight years of waiting, I finally got the surgery to remove my sweat glands because my hyperhydrosis was dehydrating me (I wasn't sweating, I was just losing water). I was so happy, I would feel physically better, AND I would get to wear whatever kinds of tops and dresses that I want for the first time since before puberty. Nope! My one side is still sweating just like before... So, January 19 I go back to my surgeon and we decide whether to do it all again, or just remove the tissue in each arm pit so the whole problem area is entirely gone. Both options will be an uncomfortable (to say the least) recovery.
But I'm determined to get this shit over with.
My number one weight on my shoulders the past year has been finances. Things have been tight. A lot of debt and a lot of stress... I'm thinking of picking up a part time job in a liquor store (such an easy, awesome job) again to help us pay off all our crap so we can get on with our lives.
Had a couple pregnancy scares this year as well, because my body is just a giant troll.
Honestly, I really want to have kids (seriously. my ovaries have been SCREAMING for babies all damn year) but the idea of getting pregnant NOW?! Terrifying. I would at least like to not be in debt. At least we have good jobs and a house.
And don't get me started on the whole "marriage should come first" thing. Chris seems to think this way, I'm more "whatever happens, happens", and while I really want to get married (seriously, over five years now. Where's my ring?! haha) I'm quickly getting over the whole idea of marriage. We talk about all this stuf, but stupid money gets in the way of us accomplishing any of our sterotypical "happy family" goals. Money....
Plans for 2015.
1) WRITE
2) FUCKING WRITE. Seriously. I need to make goals like five pages a week, minimum. Get shit done!
3) I'm a negative person. I seem to dwell on everything bad. So, this year I am making myself a Happiness Jar. Every good thing that happens will be written down and put in to a jar, so whenever I need a reminder to stop being a whiny bitch I will have a ton of reasons!
4) On Saturday (the third) I am getting PLUGS! My brother paid for me to get my ears stretched. And by the BEST guy in the entire province, so I'm super excited about this. I have wanted stretched ears for years, but there was no way I was going to do it manually, then I found out I don't have to do it that way. I can't wait to buy myself some stone jewellery!
5) Climb the mountain in Banff with the tea house on top.
6)Second surgery.
Oh yeah. And I REALLY want to get a cat this year. I just need to convince Chris' mum, who owns the house we are renting. I WANT A KITTY
Not super exciting... but the list will grow.
Or I could focus on writing.
Well, that was a haphazard way to introduce myself.....
Here's to all the best in 2015
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